What a Wednesday :(

So I finally talked to Jojo about moving in with Luke.. he was not thrilled.. i really hope this doesn't start another month long silence :( It hurts when he doesn't talk to me. He's the only blood family I have left, I know I don't always make the choices he wishes me to make, but I make them. So that started my morning in tears, I found out I didn't get any of the Anoka jobs,  then I tried to cook dinner for Luke and that didn't work out as planned either, and my button popped off my favorite pants :(

I'm feeling very down today, it was SO hard to get out of bed, not only cause Luke was there but I just didin't want to get up, I didn't want to come to work, I don't want to go interview later and I don't want to go to dance. I just want to crawl in bed and stay there. I did however get out of bed, I did come to work, Andrew made me a baby pancake for breakfast and  it was okay.

I have been talking to Philly (Patricia) and it seems like she and I are in the same boat, and my dr mentioned that she thought I might be insulin resistant and she actually is (thanks to her actually GOING to a dr)  i am going to be cutting out a lot of sugars in my diet and see how I do.  So I apologize in advance if I start to be a bitch over the next few weeks. Starting Feb 1st cutting back the candy I know me well enough to know I can't get rid of everything at once, so candy, I've already switched to foyo instead of ice cream (except cold stone).

So many changes to be made.. so little time...