Twas days after Christmas..

With all the fun, excitement and craziness of Christmas it's been a few days. I'll try and go from topic to topic and not jump around too much. Well thursday I went in to take my application in at PerMar and pretty much got the job on the spot, I should hopefully be working security with Gina at Thrivent. I have to take all the stupid tests, drug test, back ground, I need CPR, First Aid and to become licenced as a security guard in Mn. So well after the start of the new year, but it's a start at least.
The same day I went to P.P and talked to a DR about an IUD. I am excited to try this new thing and get started, hopefully get back to where I used to be with all of that. Less side effects than the shot and safer than just the pill. *Crossing fingers* I have no bad reactions and don't get pregnant before I'm 30, I know ME saying not til I'm 30. I want a kid yes, but I don't want to Push Luke into kids too soon before he is ready to have them. So I'm hoping that this IUD will help with all of that.
Saturday I had Christmas with Jojo & Luke and the cats. We went and saw Chipwrecked, and then came back to the house and had dinner(or lunch) that I made ( Ham, potatoes, mac n cheese and broccoli with Cheese Cake), and we opened presents and watched football. It was lovely. I got lot's of fun stuff, got all my goodies from Tampa Bay and some new shot glasses. Then Luke and I went to see his Gma for a little bit and hung out with his family while Jojo caught some Z's and then back to the Ice Castle for some more games and a movie with Jojo, Sy & Shawna. They brought over more presents so we opened those as well.
Then Christmas Morning I spent time with Luke's family, had cinn rolls and a nerf gun fight and opened presents and took some pictures (with my new camera). And thne Luke and I went back to his place to open presents alone together. We watched Christmas Movies and then He sent me on a Christmas Scavenger hunt! It was fun!! And it ended at my prize (last present) which was a lovely TV for my Bedroom :) Later that evening we went bowling with his family (his brother is a sore winner AND looser).
All and all it was a pretty good holiday, probably one of the best ones I've ever had.
That night I had a horrible dream and I refuse to put into words and woke up VERY sad and yesterday was just kind of a blah day after that. We did make some tasty steaks for dinner (Thanks to a recepie from Kenya) we watched Crazy Stupid love (Which is a great movie if you haven'ts een it) and then we watched private practice and played trivial pursuit (which made me feel dumb) and then we went to bed, as I had to get up for work today.
It was a long weekend filled with ups and downs. So many changes happening right now and I just don't know how to f eel any more. I feel guilty for not missing my mom more, especially when my brother misses her so much. I know I should be happy being happy but sometimes I look at my brother and I feel sad because he's not happy. I want him to find happiness so much, but I don't know how to help him. It's said one finds happiness when others are happy and I think that part of me needs Jojo to be happier so that I don't feel guilty for my happiness.. does that make sense? Who knows no one reads this anyway.
Alright that's all the insights I can stand for today... until then..