Past Present and Future....

It's interesting how things don't go as planned in life. Once upon a time I would of been mad and had a horrible weekend because nothing went as planned. I am very glad to be past that stage in my life because now I am able to see that not all change is bad and enjoy living in the moment. :)
Friday I went to pickle for a bit and then went with Luke to see his old friends as the coached wrestling. I'd never been to a wrestling match before that wasn't something that I ever did in high school. So it was fun to watch something new and learn about something I didn't know about. We had dinner after and watched a movie and crashed. It was nice to be able to sleep in. Now that I'm getting up in the mornings now I miss sleeping in.. just a little bit lol.
Saturday I spent some time with Kenya and she did my hair. Then Luke and I went to see A Christmas Carol. I knew the baseline for the story, but it was nice to see it and learn all about what it was that happened. It also is the reason for this blog.  (More Later)
And today was just a day of relaxation, silliness, and basically blissful.. despite the loss of all the teams I wanted to win in foot ball today :)

Now, Most people think you should leave the past behind you, live in the present and wait for the future. But if you solely live in the present you will never see past it. For instance when I was a teenager all I thought about was concerts, movies, and fun. I didn't care that I was blowing $25,000 a YEAR on NOTHING. Concert Tshirts, road trips, movies, partying.. I have NOTHING to show for the fact that I have had one or more jobs since I was 16 years old. I lived in the moment. Now as an adult I am able to look at that and realize that .. yes you should live in the moment but you should look forward and NEVER forget your past or you will be doomed to repeat it.
Scrooge was punished for his past bad deeds, shown that karma does catch up to you and told he would have to wear chains in his after life.. I've done bad things, I've been a not nice girl so I would like to take a moment  to say a few things: Sy.. You are truly the best friend a girl could ask for I know I put you through HELL as a teenager, and the fact that you are still willing to be my best friend just shows how GREAT of a Man you are. I thank you. Jojo, I was a bratty little sister, and in the last few years I know I laid a lot of burden on you that I should of tried to help you with more, but I took time for my self, and I was a little bit self fish. I know that 3 different times in my life you've been the one to be there for me and I Thank You. I love you and I am SO happy to have you as my Brother.
I know there are others that I have wronged and I know the choices that I have made and a lot of them have made me a different person and some days I wonder WHO I AM. But when I take inventory of the friends that I have, The family I'm surrounded with and the Love that I have found I realize that all of those changes, choices were for the better or I might not have whom I have now in my life today.

I am thankful to those friends from my past... I LOVE my friends in the present and I can't wait to enjoy more time with them in the future. It's the Christmas Season, a time for love and family and togetherness. I know that we have all had a crazy year of ups and downs, and you know 2011 brought me some wonderful joy and some deep sorrows, but i do believe that this year had to happen for a reason. To prepare me for the future and what there is to come. I am excited to look forward, to see what time will bring me.. until then.. remember... Don't LIVE in your past, Don't over look your present and NEVER forget to think about your FUTURE... If we didn't need to remember our past.. we wouldn't have the mental capacity too, if we were ment to only think of the right now, we wouldn't have hopes and dreams. <3