7 months

Today is 7 months with Luke. It's been a wonderful 7 months. I wish that I was happier all around, because it would make these feelings all the better. It's really hard for me right now to be not working. I mean I know I'm working for my dad, which is great, but he realy doesn't need me here, he doesn't need the added expense of me being here. So I feel like a mooch, I'm living with Luke, but paying the bills at the Castle, I feel like a mooch.
Some mornings I wake up and I just don't want to get out of bed. I just want to sleep and disappear. Iwent to the dr friday and got my blood crawn for my thyroid test, and now I wait. I wish it would say there was something wrong with it, but there won't be. I'm just fat, weak minded and lazy. I hate feeling this way, andy i don't even know who to talk to about it. I can'ts ay anything to Luke cause he hates it when i bad mouth my self but i can't help how I feel. I'm so incredibly lost right now.. I don't even know what todo